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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

More waiting

Due to the universe being a bitch, I will likely have to sit out April, as well. My Love and I need to wait awhile to get some financial stuff together.

Friday, February 22, 2008


I am still here. I am still sad. We have two tries left, so I am starting to wonder if it can work. I so want to be pregnant. We have a consult with the Doctor next week to make sure that everything is okay.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008


Blood test negative.

Taking March off.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Still Negative

Still negative HPT. Boob still sore, big, but not as big; crushingly tired. Blood test tomorrow (don't get result until late afternoon). No AF.

I have no words.

Sunday, February 17, 2008


Negative HPT at 12 DPO. Boobs still big and sore, temps still up, no sign of AF. I don't know. My last clomid cycle was 29 days long. Blood test on Tuesday.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

And now I bring you...

First I brought you super temps, now in addition I bring you the super growing boobs! They grew noticably from yesterday morning to last night. I am a small chested woman. I am a small A. I always have been. I am not usualy aware of my brests. I can exercise without a bra on. They are bigger. I can feel them when I walk, and they are sore. :)

Also, I now have a supersonic sense of smell. Apparently my office is full of people that wear strong perfume. I never noticed before.

I am still tired, and I have not had any caffeine since a small cup of coffee on Monday! I also woke up today at 4:45am instead of 6:15... I couldn't get back to sleep.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Super Temps

My temperature is still going/staying up. If I felt bad, I say I was on my way to getting sick, but I don't feel bad. It is higher than it ever has been, and there have been no dips like usual. It feels different. I hope this time is different.

So, I am either getting sick or I am pregnant. (BUT! I don't feel like I am getting sick.) I am hopeful, but terrified of the hope. I just want this to happen so much.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I spoke too soon

My nutty emotions started last night, and I have been on edge all day. One minute I am happy, the next I want to go up to somepne and go GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Also, my boobs feel wierd. I am tired, not crushingly so, but more tired than I was. My temps are still UP. It will be a long nine months, I hope!

Monday, February 11, 2008

Still good

When looking at my temps, mine are consistently up. Usually at dpo 4 or 5 I drop. There has been no drop. My temps look DIFFERENT this time, for the last 6 days. Encouraging. Here is my optimistic theory for this month on why I am pregnant.
I am tired on these hormones, but not crushingly so, and I am not as crazy emotionally. I think since my body is using the hormones to grow our little speck, the hormones are not so brutal. Right about now our little speck should be burrowing in my uterine lining for the long haul. Yesterday, a few times I felt a sharp stabby sensation in my uterus. I take all this as a great sign!!!

The below site has a week by week description of the development and it is scientific, but it gives a better description of these early days. It starts with fertilizations, and it is really helping me picture our speck growing.

I have said it before, that my acupuncturist believes that if you visualize the future you want, it will happen. I am co-opting her belief for my own baby making. :) I am picturing it. Bring on the Halloween baby!!!

Friday, February 8, 2008

Feeling okay

I am doing pretty well. So far, the crushing tiredness is not here. I am a bit sleepy all day and I sleep like the dead, but that is not so bad. I feel less bloated, which is nice. I have a wierd tingling in my hand, but I remember that from last time. It will go away. I feel pretty good.

I did see a commercial with a little baby that made me almost cry, but it passed. Hopefully the crazy emotions will hold off a bit until I know I am pregnant.

Along with all the other signs lining up to say out timing was perfect, even Fertility Friend agrees. Come on baby... GROW!!!

Thursday, February 7, 2008

New post

I am trying to think of something to write. I feel good about this time, but I always say that. Our timing was spot on, both blood work and OPK's say so. Our swimmmers were good and plentiful. My follicle was big and ready to go. My acupuncturist said my Chi was different the last few time she treated me- since our last negative. It is better and fuller (not sure exactly what that means.) I take that as a sign that my body is ready for a baby. Her treatment was to give my uterus lots of rich blood and nourishment. Our little speck should be a bunch of cells now and boucing around looking for a place to snuggle down in. My uterus is OPEN for business- attach away!!

Way too many days until I can test... :)

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

65 MIllion

I am all spermed up. The sample had 65 million sperm and its post thaw motility was 57%. That is super good for frozen. I feel good. It was not that uncomfortable this time. I didn't feel the sperm go in, which is good. That is not a good feeling. It is all good.

Blood test Feb 19th. I'll probably start home testing on the 16th. I start the Prometrium tomorrow, twice a day orally. I have acupuncture tomorrow to help with implantation.


Monday, February 4, 2008

9AM tomorrow

Just got the word, we inseminate tomorrow at 9am. My Estrogen was 660 which is good and my LH was 83, which means I am surging. I trigger tonight. Come on baby... bring on the pregnancy.

It's on!

Well, the dildo camming went well this morning. I had one 21mm follicle on my right. I also had 2 14mm, and a 15mm on my right. My left had a 14 and a 10. So, really one good one. My lining looked good and the OPk's said I am surging. I'll know this afternoon when we will inseminate. I think tomorrow... I really hope this time works. This is my biggest follicle yet, so I am hopeful.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Nothing yet

No surge this morning. My temps are taking a downward turn. I have an appointment to get wanded and levels checked tomorrow. Looks like we might inseminate Tuesday. I'll find out tomorrow how my lining and looks and how many follicles I have.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Some day soon

I have my sperm, so now we just wait for the color change. I am more emotional, and it is harder to keep it together. I am holding back some excitment. I wish I could get more excited.