Processing

I see my acupuncturist today, YAY!!!! I had to miss last week’s scheduled appointment because My Love was very sick. So, I am super overdue for an appointment, and this has not exactly been a low stress week. If any of my 2 (?) readers are in Suburban MD, next to DC I highly recommend this whole wellness center.
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I am still trying to process everything. My Love is so very supportive, and I wish she could do something for me, but I don’t know what I need. I know I am going to a fertility doctor, but I didn’t think I would need “fertility” treatments. I went to bed late and then I woke up at 4:30am today and could not get back to sleep. I usually get up at 6:30am. I am tired.

Tiny follicle

The verdict is in. I did surge and my tiny follicle is no good for baby makin’. The Dr highly recommends Clomid for the next cycle, starting at day 3. She want to do it days 3-7 instead of days 5-9 because I have short cycles and she wants to catch the follicle(s) in time for development. I asked if it could be a fluke, but she doesn’t think so. I am sad I will miss inseminating this cycle, but glad that we didn't just shoot $1000 up my hoo-ha with a small follicle.

More waiting

I had more blood work done today (CD13) and a sonogram. My follical was at 15mm, but with the + OPK and the temp increase I think I had an LH surge. That is too small a follicle for a surge. So now I wait to see if the blood work shows a surge. I'm tired and scared. We only have two more tries bought and I am not sure if there is more sprem by the donor that we both love. (and who could be My Love's twin in both baby pictures and attitude) This sucks. I like this even less that the two week wait. I am in a crappy mood and I am afraid I will start crying at work.

Confused

Apparently the Dr’s office did not get the VM I left on the nurse line (like I was instructed to leave). I called them at 3:40 as they close at 4pm. After talking to the receptionist, nurse, nurse then the doctor, I will be going in for more monitoring tomorrow. More blood drawn and another appointment with the dildo cam. I don’t know what to think. She said my day 10 estridol levels were 138, I don’t know what they are supposed to be. I should have asked, I just don’t know what to do. I am so confused. It seems like the harder we look at my body, the more things just are not what they should be. It looks like clomid is a real possibility.

What the heck!?!?!

The ultrasound showed one follicle at 13mm, which is a measurement they would expect on CD 6 or 7, not CD 10. The blood work had levels that matched the egg. The DR thought I was a good 4 days from ovulating. I got a positive OPK this morning. I called and left a message and am waiting for the nurse to call me back. I don’t know what the hell is going on. We won’t inseminate this month because there is no way my egg could have developed in 2 days. I don’t know. I left a message over 3 hours ago. I have no idea what my body is doing and what this means. I wish the office would call me back.

More tests

So Saturday, I am going to get a day 10 sonogram and a blood tests. We are going to see how my egg is developing and if I might need Clomid to make a mature egg. I hope not. The low progesteron is a concern and might be a red flag. I don't want to keep throwing sperm up my ho-ha if I don't have mature eggs. I am terrified to use Clomid. I am terrified of twins. We can't afford two babies. I am not sure how we are going to afford one, but everyone tells me you figure it out. We will not do IVF and we have a limit on how many time we will try, this is for both sanity and money reasons. My brain is tired.

Some one asked me about my hobbies. My hobby right now is trying to make a baby. I had no idea it would be such a time consuming hobby. I take time of work and it fills my thoughts and wekends. We buy supplies.

I play ice hockey with women, and I thought about taking this fall off while we try because it will save money, and I didn't want to commit to a team and then leave early on. I am still going to take time off, but I may sub when a team needs bodies if I am not pregnant. By summer when the next season pops up, I'll either be pregnant or we won't be trying anymore and I'll play.
My brain is really tired.

I'm back

So, we will probably end up inseminating at the end of this month. I am not sure exactly when. We are goingt to do a double this time, one ICI and one IUI. Hopefully, we can recreate the first insemination where I thing I did get preganant and now I will be on the Prometrium to sustain a pregnancy.
Taking a month off was wierd, I feel like I have been gone from TTC for years.