Soon

I took my last dose of Clomid last night. It makes me really hot when I sleep, and I do feel a bit more emotional. I pick of the sperm tomorrow, and then I start peeing on stick to see when I surge. I think I will see it on Sunday.

Clomid

I have taken two doses of Clomid. Only three more to go. Last time the crazy did not start until after insemination, so I am not too worried for this week. The Clomid does make me super hot at night, and it did that last time too. I want to be pregnant this cycle. I am visualizing the future for me and My Love and it includes a baby born around Halloween.

I realy have no preference about boy versus girl. I think that girls are probably easier in the beginning and boys are probably easier in later years. One of my friends hast the cutest almost 11 month old boy, E. In the past, I have had some concerns that it might be hard to relate to a boy baby, but being with E and watching him grow, has really made me very comfortable. I have nieces and nephews, but I was not around them much as babies, so they never gave me a lot of baby practice. (My family does not live close.) Any baby would be good. My Love has expressed some concerns about what if we have a girly girl. My Love is mostly the opposite of girly. She never had concerns about raising a boy, or a girl, just a pink frilly girl. I don't think I'd have trouble with that. I am not girly, but I went through the super girly phases in my earlier years trying to fit in. So, I, at least, have a frame of reference. We complement each other well, that way. My weakness in her strenght, and vise versa.

That is a lot of thoughts!

It looks like insemination will be somewhere around Feb 3-5. Probably not the 3rd, I think I will get my surge then. Likely will inseminate on the 4 or 5th. Who knows...

Click Click

Wanding went well, no cycts. They are going to do Clomid days 5-9 this cycle. I asked what the logic is behind changing days and got a less that satisfying answer. Basically you can start it whenever on days 3-5. I am finding the wanding more painful. My ovaries like to play hide and seek. It is a wierd sensation to have something hurt from that deep inside.

Stuff like that makes me think I'll never be able to even try birthing a baby naturally. Not that I want to do that, but I am keeping my options open. Nothing like putting the cart before the horse, let's just try to get me pregnant and keep me pregnant first. Then I can worry about how to get it out, after it is in. :)

Wanding here I come

I get wanded tomorrow morning and if all looks good, I'll start Clomid Thursday night. I am not sure what I feel about this cycle. I am waiting to see if we can try before I get excited.

CD 1, apparently

Uhh, it is CD 1. I had a 24 day cycle with no drugs and no tries. It was about 3 days sooner that my short 27 day cycle. I had to rearrange some stuff at work, to account for my being 3 days ahead of schedule. Wierd. I get wanded on Thursday morning for day 3 check to make sure I can use drugs this cycle. I really was not expecting the rollar coaster ride to start early this week. I was sure I was on the later in the week ride. This explains why I had PMS this weekend. I was like it is too early to be PMS...

Here we go again...

OB/GYN

I had my yearly girlie parts exam this morning. It was a mob scene in the office today. I did not think about how hard it would be to see that many pregnant women. After one couple came out of the back with their ultrasound pictures in hand, I almost started crying right there. That is one way to feel like crap first thing in the morning. Wow, and I thought I was doing so well.

I think I have figured out the ticker. I am using one from FF that is interactive with my charting, not lillie pie that is not. Mid cycle... two more weeks.

Time moves fast

I am on CD 10 for my no try cycle. Time moves faster when I am not waiting for anything. (There is a lesson in there...) I had a very nice and low key weekend. My Love and I connected, it was good. I started to feel kinda wierd later in the afternoon, and I just thought I was tired. But now it looks like the headache I have had for a few days is trying to work itself up into a migraine. I have not had a migraine since I started acupuncture. (9 months ago)
I am going to try some caffene, and if that doesn't work I have some prescription medicine that will knock me on my ass. :)

New Year

It is a new year and I am hoping for new results. I am on CD 5, so my new cycle to get pregnant should be 3 weeks from starting. I took down my ticker because I can't figure out how to edit it when my cycle is longer that 27days, besides downloading a new ticker. It was driving me crazy.

For the new year, My Love and I got a new mattress. We have been lusting over the temper-pedic for many years, and we finally broke down and bought one. It is heavenly. It is wierd at first, but not in a bad way.

This month is a calm one, no trying. I will be trying to mend my heart and get ready for the rollercoaster to start the end on the month.